Post by Ryan Robins on Aug 31, 2009 19:34:14 GMT 1
**INTRODUCTIONS**
Name:
Ryan Carter Robins
Nickname:
Ry
Age & Year:
16, 6th year
Birthday:
February 27th. This makes him a pisces. Mysterious and alluring individuals, most Pisces are extremely talented, but even though they are gifted in many ways, they still manage to spend most of their lives battling "confusing" conditions. Pisces is the sign symbolised by the image of two fish. Their symbol depicts one fish heading upward, the other pulling downward. This mirrors how Pisceans are frequently torn between two pathways in life, or actually do live two very different existences at the same time.
You are the zodiac's most sensitive sign, so you need to take extra special care of yourself. Nobody can beat you up, as much as you can beat yourself up within your own mind. In your purest form you are psychic, visionary and a guiding light to all who know you. But, in your "out of tune" state, you become depressed, obsessive and confused.
Life Pursuit: To avoid feeling alone and instead feel connected to others and the world at large
Sexual Orientation:
Bisexual
Birthplace:
London, England.
Current Residence:
In a mansion just outside of London. Ryan lives with his parents, though they are often away for their jobs. It happens that he’ll come home for the holidays just to spend it alone.
Parents:
Carter Robins, 41, Auror
Ariana Diggory, 37, Auror
Siblings:
None
Blood Status:
Pureblood
**WHAT DO YOU LOOK LIKE**
Picture:
Looks:
Hair: Dark Brown
Eyes: Blue. He sometimes wears green contacts
Height: 5"7
Weight: 100 lbs, this gives him a BMI of almost 15.
Appearance:
Ryan is very small, anorexic even. He tries to hide this and often seems busy with his food, but if you pay close attention you can see he really doesn't eat all that much. Aside from that he works out an insane amount of the time. Ryan isn't really the type to accessorize his outfits. He generally wears his uniform the way it's supposed to be, buttons done up and his tie proper. It can make him look haughty and arrogant, but he doesn't care. The only thing he wears around his wrist is a small rubber band. He'll tug on it when he's close to losing his focus, or when he's particularly hungry. It's to keep himself in control.
Favourite Outfit:
Ryan wears clothes that hide his slender form, so baggy jeans and wide t-shirts. When he dresses up, it’s in black jeans and dress shirts that accentuate his eyes. He knows how to play to his strengths and often wears clothes that keep the focus away from his small frame.
**PERSONALITY**
How do you treat your friends:
Ryan has very few close friends, but those he has mean the world to him. They're like his family, and he'll do anything to keep them. He literally means anything, which sometimes can come off as rather suffocating when he isn't the center of attention. He's lost his best friend and he doesn't think he can take having that happen again, so he tries his best to keep the ones in his life happy.
How do you treat your enemies:
Ryan hates in style. He doesn't do physical fights, or even ones with wands. He generally prefers to withdraw himself and ignore those who mistreated him. If he has a feeling people are about to leave, he'll push them away on purpose. People might call him a whimp for it, but he just doesn't want the drama.
Social Status:
Generally people regard him as just another Slytherin, cold and withdrawn, and people in his own house figure he's a bit odd, but still one of them. Teachers seem to like him. He works hard and doesn’t miss any classes.
Positive Traits:
# Independent. Ryan has been brought up mostly by his nanny. She died when he was fourteen years old, and he has taught himself to never depend on anything or anyone else. His parents are barely ever home, and he never expects them to be there for him. He taught himself different skills, like cooking.
# Charming. Ryan can be quite the charmer. When he wants something or someone, he will try his best to get it. It often works too. He doesn’t always turn on the charm, and doesn’t use it to get people in bed. He doesn’t want to deceive people by making them think that he is in love with them.
# Smart. Ryan reads a lot, and always has his homework finished in time. Aside from his studies, he also knows a lot about people. He has a habit of reading people and understanding both how they work and how their relationships are.
# Honest. Ryan doesn’t lie. He’s upfront and honest about his life and problems. He tends to hide some things, but will rarely outright lie to anyone. That includes telling them the truth about things that aren’t as nice about them.
# Artistic. Ryan has a talent for drawing. He likes to spend most of his time outside, and is never bored of drawing others. He gives paintings away as presents often, and likes to make people smile that way.
# Self-preservation: Ryan will always take care of himself, no matter what. It doesn’t matter if he has to manipulate or steal, he will always make sure that whatever happens, he is okay.
# Ambitious: Ryan wants to be able to provide for himself and an eventual family. He studies hard and is determined to make his parents proud.
Negative Traits:
# Borderline Personality Disorder. Ryan has BP, and that is his biggest negative trait. He is afraid of people leaving him, clings to them, and often disengages from relationships because he is afraid that his lover will get bored of him. It’s very complex, and he takes medication to calm things down.
# Anorexia. Due to his need to be in control, Ryan has developed an eating disorder. It isn’t because he isn’t happy with his looks, but because he needs to find some way to at least control one part of his life.
# Need to please. Ryan has a desire to please people, especially his parents. He wants them to be proud of him, and does everything he needs for that to happen. He knows that his parents disapprove of people being bisexual, and has never actually told them that he is.
# Unforgiving. It takes Ryan a lot of time to forgive people. Once they have hurt him, he builds up a wall which is almost impossible to break down.
# Inability to accept help. He won’t ask for help, nor will he accept it. People minding his business will get harsh and cruel words. This goes for both unknown people and friends.
# Insecure. Though he'll try to hide it, Ryan doesn't really think he deserves love, after all, he can't love himself. He knows that he isn’t ugly, but he hates his inside. He needs a way to control things, and starves himself because of it. Every day is a struggle. One day he can be very confident, even cocky, and the next he can think he’s not even worth anything.
# Afraid. Ryan is very afraid to show his true self. He doesn’t like to talk about himself, and often changes the subject when people get too close, or ignore them instead. He is scared to open up, and very much tries to be in control.
[For the next part, bold your answer]
Money vs Love/Friendship
Love vs Lust [It's easier]
Dueling with wand vs Fighting
Fighting vs Solving the situation with words
Reading vs Writing
Purebloods vs Muggleborns
Cats vs Dogs
Comedy vs Drama
**SOME MORE INSIGHT**
Skills/Hobbies:
Drawing is his life. Aside from that he likes to go birdwatching in the forest. He can recognize a lot of different birds, both by looks and their call, and is gifted at calling out to them. He also exercises a lot.
Likes/Dislikes:
Likes:[/u]
* Cigarettes - They take away the hunger
* Art - The only thing that can calm him down
* Non-eating - He likes being in control
* Birds - They make him feel safe and accepted
* Books - It's nice to escape to a different world
* Being in control - Always, no matter what. If he loses control, he'll freak
* His owl - She's been his only friend through some tough times
* Nate Spencer. His one true friend, and one who hasn't abandoned him no matter how many times Ryan's pushed his buttons. The boy is like a brother to him.
Dislikes[/u]
* Not being in control of things - If he's not in control, his brain is utter chaos
* His constant need to please his parents - He's well aware of how pathetic it is to be begging for love
* Being abandoned - It makes him feel like there's really nothing to love about him
* People butting in on things that aren’t their business - If he didn't ask for your opinion, he doesn't care.
* Pureblood Mania - If there hadn't been people who thought Purebloods were better, his parents might have stayed home with him[/size]
Best/Worst memory:
Best Memory: His best memory is in a lot of ways his worst memory as well. When he was twelve, Ryan got molested by an older Muggle boy. While this was going on, he felt loved and wanted for the first time in his life, but he soon realized that it meant nothing. After that, he swore not to let himself love anyone like that again.
Worst Memory: His best Muggle friend, Brent, committed suicide last year. Ryan hadn't seen this coming, and it was quite a blow.
Secrets:
Ryan has quite a few secrets. The first is that he lost his virginity in what would be called statutarory rape. The second is that he isn't sure he regrets it. It ended badly, but at least he felt loved, if only for that night. The last one is that he's anorexic.
**YOUR HOGWARTS CAREER**
What subjects are you taking this term:
# Astronomy :: E
# Care of Magical Creatures :: O
# Charms :: E
# Defense Against the Dark Arts: O
# Potions: O
# Transfiguration: E
Favourite/Least Favourite Subject:
Favorite: Care of Magical Creatures. It's an easy win. Animals will never reject him, so he feels safe and accepted when he's working with them.
Least Favorite: There isn't a subject he dislikes. He's good at most subjects, the teachers are nice, what is there not to like? Okay, so the homework isn't always the greatest part, but he likes learning new things.
What kind of student are you:
Ryan works hard in class, is rarely ever absent, and hands in his homework on time. He never talks back to teachers and is generally a nice kid to have in your classroom. However, he's also the kind of student that would do anything to make a teacher like him, including some activities that aren't technically legal. [Aka yes, he would do a professor if it helped him out, but not to improve his grades].
What is your preferred House:
Slytherin.
**BEFORE AND AFTER**
How Did You Come To Be/Childhood:
Carter Robins and Ariana Diggory were highschool sweethearts. They were both Gryffindors, and spent most of their teenage years together. It was only logical that they both went on to become Aurors after their marriage. Ariana got pregnant a while after that, and though she refused to abort it, she wasn't pleased with the pregnancy either. On February 27th she gave birth to a small infant boy, and she was back on the job a week later.
Ryan has been raised mostly by his gouvernante, called Myrte. She took care of him from the moment he was born, and tried to be there for him as much as possible. When Ryan was seven years old, he got sent to an English boarding school, his parents claiming that it was because he needed the education. When he fought them on this, the worst words of his life were spoken to him. "You were a mistake". He still remembers just how he felt when he heard that. It caused him to withdraw, to find love with other people. When he was twelve years old, he found love with an older Muggle male. The man treated him like a prince and Ryan got hooked on that feeling. When he was molested, he didn't feel bad about it until the man told him to get out and keep his trap shut.
Coming To Hogwarts:
Hogwarts was the best thing that ever happened to him. Even though it was another boarding school, Ryan finally felt at home. He met up with some wonderful people and was finally able to develop close friendships. He also stayed in touch with one of his Muggle friends, Brent, and was elated to hear about his relationship with another boy. For a while, he started to believe in love.
That was, until Brent committed suicide. When this happened, Ryan fell apart. He hadn't known his best friend felt like that, and he felt abandoned and angry, as well as being sad and miserable without the other to cheer him up. To make matters worse, this was when his Borderline really started acting up. He has been diagnosed just a few months ago and is currently on medication. When he isn't using his medication he can dissociate when things get too intense. He'll still be physically there, but he'll feel dizzy and emotionally distanced.
What do you want to do after Hogwarts:
His parents are already pushing him to marry a beautiful Pureblood girl, and he hasn't told them that he's way more into guys than girls. He isn't sure why they're so hung up on him marrying a Pureblood when they're fighting against exactly this mania. He would like to become an artist, but his parents don't take this seriously, they think it's just a hobby.
**OOC**
ABOUT YOU –
Name/Nickname:
Mia
Age:
24
Have you got any other characters here on Cave Inimicum:
Ashley, Nate, Lukas, Graham, Danny
How did you find the site:
I made it.
How often are you online/able to play:
Five to seven days a week.
ABOUT YOUR CHARACTER –
Face Claim:
Vincent Kartheiser
Role-playing Sample:
Have a heart ♥
Name:
Ryan Carter Robins
Nickname:
Ry
Age & Year:
16, 6th year
Birthday:
February 27th. This makes him a pisces. Mysterious and alluring individuals, most Pisces are extremely talented, but even though they are gifted in many ways, they still manage to spend most of their lives battling "confusing" conditions. Pisces is the sign symbolised by the image of two fish. Their symbol depicts one fish heading upward, the other pulling downward. This mirrors how Pisceans are frequently torn between two pathways in life, or actually do live two very different existences at the same time.
You are the zodiac's most sensitive sign, so you need to take extra special care of yourself. Nobody can beat you up, as much as you can beat yourself up within your own mind. In your purest form you are psychic, visionary and a guiding light to all who know you. But, in your "out of tune" state, you become depressed, obsessive and confused.
Life Pursuit: To avoid feeling alone and instead feel connected to others and the world at large
Sexual Orientation:
Bisexual
Birthplace:
London, England.
Current Residence:
In a mansion just outside of London. Ryan lives with his parents, though they are often away for their jobs. It happens that he’ll come home for the holidays just to spend it alone.
Parents:
Carter Robins, 41, Auror
Ariana Diggory, 37, Auror
Siblings:
None
Blood Status:
Pureblood
**WHAT DO YOU LOOK LIKE**
Picture:
Looks:
Hair: Dark Brown
Eyes: Blue. He sometimes wears green contacts
Height: 5"7
Weight: 100 lbs, this gives him a BMI of almost 15.
Appearance:
Ryan is very small, anorexic even. He tries to hide this and often seems busy with his food, but if you pay close attention you can see he really doesn't eat all that much. Aside from that he works out an insane amount of the time. Ryan isn't really the type to accessorize his outfits. He generally wears his uniform the way it's supposed to be, buttons done up and his tie proper. It can make him look haughty and arrogant, but he doesn't care. The only thing he wears around his wrist is a small rubber band. He'll tug on it when he's close to losing his focus, or when he's particularly hungry. It's to keep himself in control.
Favourite Outfit:
Ryan wears clothes that hide his slender form, so baggy jeans and wide t-shirts. When he dresses up, it’s in black jeans and dress shirts that accentuate his eyes. He knows how to play to his strengths and often wears clothes that keep the focus away from his small frame.
**PERSONALITY**
How do you treat your friends:
Ryan has very few close friends, but those he has mean the world to him. They're like his family, and he'll do anything to keep them. He literally means anything, which sometimes can come off as rather suffocating when he isn't the center of attention. He's lost his best friend and he doesn't think he can take having that happen again, so he tries his best to keep the ones in his life happy.
How do you treat your enemies:
Ryan hates in style. He doesn't do physical fights, or even ones with wands. He generally prefers to withdraw himself and ignore those who mistreated him. If he has a feeling people are about to leave, he'll push them away on purpose. People might call him a whimp for it, but he just doesn't want the drama.
Social Status:
Generally people regard him as just another Slytherin, cold and withdrawn, and people in his own house figure he's a bit odd, but still one of them. Teachers seem to like him. He works hard and doesn’t miss any classes.
Positive Traits:
# Independent. Ryan has been brought up mostly by his nanny. She died when he was fourteen years old, and he has taught himself to never depend on anything or anyone else. His parents are barely ever home, and he never expects them to be there for him. He taught himself different skills, like cooking.
# Charming. Ryan can be quite the charmer. When he wants something or someone, he will try his best to get it. It often works too. He doesn’t always turn on the charm, and doesn’t use it to get people in bed. He doesn’t want to deceive people by making them think that he is in love with them.
# Smart. Ryan reads a lot, and always has his homework finished in time. Aside from his studies, he also knows a lot about people. He has a habit of reading people and understanding both how they work and how their relationships are.
# Honest. Ryan doesn’t lie. He’s upfront and honest about his life and problems. He tends to hide some things, but will rarely outright lie to anyone. That includes telling them the truth about things that aren’t as nice about them.
# Artistic. Ryan has a talent for drawing. He likes to spend most of his time outside, and is never bored of drawing others. He gives paintings away as presents often, and likes to make people smile that way.
# Self-preservation: Ryan will always take care of himself, no matter what. It doesn’t matter if he has to manipulate or steal, he will always make sure that whatever happens, he is okay.
# Ambitious: Ryan wants to be able to provide for himself and an eventual family. He studies hard and is determined to make his parents proud.
Negative Traits:
# Borderline Personality Disorder. Ryan has BP, and that is his biggest negative trait. He is afraid of people leaving him, clings to them, and often disengages from relationships because he is afraid that his lover will get bored of him. It’s very complex, and he takes medication to calm things down.
# Anorexia. Due to his need to be in control, Ryan has developed an eating disorder. It isn’t because he isn’t happy with his looks, but because he needs to find some way to at least control one part of his life.
# Need to please. Ryan has a desire to please people, especially his parents. He wants them to be proud of him, and does everything he needs for that to happen. He knows that his parents disapprove of people being bisexual, and has never actually told them that he is.
# Unforgiving. It takes Ryan a lot of time to forgive people. Once they have hurt him, he builds up a wall which is almost impossible to break down.
# Inability to accept help. He won’t ask for help, nor will he accept it. People minding his business will get harsh and cruel words. This goes for both unknown people and friends.
# Insecure. Though he'll try to hide it, Ryan doesn't really think he deserves love, after all, he can't love himself. He knows that he isn’t ugly, but he hates his inside. He needs a way to control things, and starves himself because of it. Every day is a struggle. One day he can be very confident, even cocky, and the next he can think he’s not even worth anything.
# Afraid. Ryan is very afraid to show his true self. He doesn’t like to talk about himself, and often changes the subject when people get too close, or ignore them instead. He is scared to open up, and very much tries to be in control.
[For the next part, bold your answer]
Money vs Love/Friendship
Love vs Lust [It's easier]
Fighting vs Solving the situation with words
Reading vs Writing
Purebloods vs Muggleborns
Cats vs Dogs
Comedy vs Drama
**SOME MORE INSIGHT**
Skills/Hobbies:
Drawing is his life. Aside from that he likes to go birdwatching in the forest. He can recognize a lot of different birds, both by looks and their call, and is gifted at calling out to them. He also exercises a lot.
Likes/Dislikes:
Likes:[/u]
* Cigarettes - They take away the hunger
* Art - The only thing that can calm him down
* Non-eating - He likes being in control
* Birds - They make him feel safe and accepted
* Books - It's nice to escape to a different world
* Being in control - Always, no matter what. If he loses control, he'll freak
* His owl - She's been his only friend through some tough times
* Nate Spencer. His one true friend, and one who hasn't abandoned him no matter how many times Ryan's pushed his buttons. The boy is like a brother to him.
Dislikes[/u]
* Not being in control of things - If he's not in control, his brain is utter chaos
* His constant need to please his parents - He's well aware of how pathetic it is to be begging for love
* Being abandoned - It makes him feel like there's really nothing to love about him
* People butting in on things that aren’t their business - If he didn't ask for your opinion, he doesn't care.
* Pureblood Mania - If there hadn't been people who thought Purebloods were better, his parents might have stayed home with him[/size]
Best/Worst memory:
Best Memory: His best memory is in a lot of ways his worst memory as well. When he was twelve, Ryan got molested by an older Muggle boy. While this was going on, he felt loved and wanted for the first time in his life, but he soon realized that it meant nothing. After that, he swore not to let himself love anyone like that again.
Worst Memory: His best Muggle friend, Brent, committed suicide last year. Ryan hadn't seen this coming, and it was quite a blow.
Secrets:
Ryan has quite a few secrets. The first is that he lost his virginity in what would be called statutarory rape. The second is that he isn't sure he regrets it. It ended badly, but at least he felt loved, if only for that night. The last one is that he's anorexic.
**YOUR HOGWARTS CAREER**
What subjects are you taking this term:
# Astronomy :: E
# Care of Magical Creatures :: O
# Charms :: E
# Defense Against the Dark Arts: O
# Potions: O
# Transfiguration: E
Favourite/Least Favourite Subject:
Favorite: Care of Magical Creatures. It's an easy win. Animals will never reject him, so he feels safe and accepted when he's working with them.
Least Favorite: There isn't a subject he dislikes. He's good at most subjects, the teachers are nice, what is there not to like? Okay, so the homework isn't always the greatest part, but he likes learning new things.
What kind of student are you:
Ryan works hard in class, is rarely ever absent, and hands in his homework on time. He never talks back to teachers and is generally a nice kid to have in your classroom. However, he's also the kind of student that would do anything to make a teacher like him, including some activities that aren't technically legal. [Aka yes, he would do a professor if it helped him out, but not to improve his grades].
What is your preferred House:
Slytherin.
**BEFORE AND AFTER**
How Did You Come To Be/Childhood:
Carter Robins and Ariana Diggory were highschool sweethearts. They were both Gryffindors, and spent most of their teenage years together. It was only logical that they both went on to become Aurors after their marriage. Ariana got pregnant a while after that, and though she refused to abort it, she wasn't pleased with the pregnancy either. On February 27th she gave birth to a small infant boy, and she was back on the job a week later.
Ryan has been raised mostly by his gouvernante, called Myrte. She took care of him from the moment he was born, and tried to be there for him as much as possible. When Ryan was seven years old, he got sent to an English boarding school, his parents claiming that it was because he needed the education. When he fought them on this, the worst words of his life were spoken to him. "You were a mistake". He still remembers just how he felt when he heard that. It caused him to withdraw, to find love with other people. When he was twelve years old, he found love with an older Muggle male. The man treated him like a prince and Ryan got hooked on that feeling. When he was molested, he didn't feel bad about it until the man told him to get out and keep his trap shut.
Coming To Hogwarts:
Hogwarts was the best thing that ever happened to him. Even though it was another boarding school, Ryan finally felt at home. He met up with some wonderful people and was finally able to develop close friendships. He also stayed in touch with one of his Muggle friends, Brent, and was elated to hear about his relationship with another boy. For a while, he started to believe in love.
That was, until Brent committed suicide. When this happened, Ryan fell apart. He hadn't known his best friend felt like that, and he felt abandoned and angry, as well as being sad and miserable without the other to cheer him up. To make matters worse, this was when his Borderline really started acting up. He has been diagnosed just a few months ago and is currently on medication. When he isn't using his medication he can dissociate when things get too intense. He'll still be physically there, but he'll feel dizzy and emotionally distanced.
What do you want to do after Hogwarts:
His parents are already pushing him to marry a beautiful Pureblood girl, and he hasn't told them that he's way more into guys than girls. He isn't sure why they're so hung up on him marrying a Pureblood when they're fighting against exactly this mania. He would like to become an artist, but his parents don't take this seriously, they think it's just a hobby.
**OOC**
ABOUT YOU –
Name/Nickname:
Mia
Age:
24
Have you got any other characters here on Cave Inimicum:
Ashley, Nate, Lukas, Graham, Danny
How did you find the site:
I made it.
How often are you online/able to play:
Five to seven days a week.
ABOUT YOUR CHARACTER –
Face Claim:
Vincent Kartheiser
Role-playing Sample:
Have a heart ♥
