Find Somebody Else To Blame [OPEN]

[lukas]

Impossible. This was impossible. This could simply not be happening. He had his Potion with him, in his flask, ALL THE TIME. And yet...when he'd woken up, it was gone. It was gone, and it was about damn time that he took another sip, before he'd be transformed back into a girl. This was a disaster. This was...it was worse than anything he'd ever experienced and anything he had words for. If people found out...if someone'd taken his bottle...he couldn't make the Potion in time, and he couldn't just storm down to the Potion Masters office and demand more.

In short, if someone had taken his bottle, he was screwed. He'd turn back into a girl, his mates would see, the world would know, and he'd be the laughing stock of the school. Lukas was panicking. He was freaking the fuck out, going through his drawers and suitcase in the idle hope that he'd misplaced it there somehow. He knew that it wasn't going to happen, that he wouldn't simply be as careless as to leave it lying somewhere, but after making sure that it wasn't in his dorm, he practically flew down the stairs, hoping to find it in the common room instead.

[Bryn Kennedy]

Bryn was up bright and early as the others slept soundlessly in their beds. Well, some slept soundlessly some snored their heads off, either way. He had awoken and took a groggy look around, there was only one other bed empty and he couldnt remember for the life of him who slept in that bed. Pushing back the covers, he swung his legs out of bed and pulled his dark red dressing gown around him, this place could sure get cold sometime, before heading downstairs. As his bare feet hit the stone steps, they made a small slapping sound and as he reached the bottom he gave such a loud yawn that three students jumped out of their skins. He looked at them, they were younger than he was, or two of them were and the elder one was holding a flask, a flash he knew to be Lukas's. What the hell were they doing with that? His blue/grey eyes narrowed in dislike and distrust as he walked up to them and snatched the flask out of their hands.

"Some Gryffindor you are." He scolded, making the guy look ashamed of himself. "Sneaking around and taking other people's things. You should have been a Slytherin!"
"I just wanted to know what it was!" He answered, "He wont tell any of us. He's your friend, I'll bet you dont even know, do you?"
"I'll tell you what it is. It's absolutely none of your business." He tucked the flask inside his dressing gown and folded his arms across his chest, Bryn smiled. He didnt care that he didnt know, sure he was curious but need to know only, right? If Lukas felt like telling him, he'd listen... although if he was going to be rescuing his flask constantly, he should know what was inside it... or something. "No, I dont know what it is and I really dont care. Get lost, all of you."

As the three left the common room, Bryn sat on the couch, holding the flask in his hands. Curiosity killed the cat, he tried to remember that. But as he opened the flask and took a smell of it, it wasnt anything he recognised. Movement from upstairs told Bryn everyone was waking up so he slipped the flask back into his robe as everyone but Lukas, walked into the common room. Bryn stood up, making his back to the boys dormitory, keeping the flask secure underneath his robe. He felt like he was holding some illegal substence or something. As he creaked open the door he saw Luke was panicking, obviously looking for the flask. With a raised eyebrow Bryn pulled it out of his robe. "Looking for this?" He asked, holding it out of the boys reach. "Some guys stole it... I rescued it but I hope to god I'm not about to hand you some illegal substence." His eyes narrowed in suspicion. "What's so important about whatever you keep in this flask? I dont understand it."

[lukas]

He both wanted to kiss and murder Bryn in that moment. Kiss him for holding the flask that he needed so very much [and okay, quite possibly because Bryn Kennedy was hot], and murder him for asking those questions that he really didn't want to answer. He hated lying to his friends, especially one as dear to him as Bryn, and yet he could hardly tell him the truth. That'd go down well. "Oh, it's a Potion that keeps me from transforming back into a girl. What, I never told you I was born physically female?" He doubted that would really make this any easier.

"It's nothing illegal, I promise." Lukas could at least answer him that, and look at him earnestly. The Potion he was taking wasn't illegal, it was just ridiculously complicated to make. Which is why he usually asked the Potions Master for help. "It's just.." What could he say to make the other back off? "Medication, I suppose." His trademark grin came in place, a glint in his eyes. "You know, enlarge the penis and all that shit." No, he didn't expect the other to buy that, but he was hoping they could simply stick to the story and move on. The blonde held out his hand expectantly, needing to take that sip as soon as possible.

[Bryn Kennedy]

He watched his friend's face go from happiness and overwhelming relief to fear. His face went pale as Bryn asked him the questions Luke obviously did not want to answer. Despite whether or not Bryn got the answers he wanted he would give Luke the flask back. He wasnt the type of person to hold it ransom until Luke told him what he wanted to know. He wasnt a bad guy afterall. His eyebrows arched over his eyes as he waited for some kind of words or reaction from Luke, instead he just stared at the flask.

"Thats alright then." He threw the flask to Luke with a small smile. Bryn, as much as somtimes he seemed the sort of guy who would use illegal substences, he actually despised them and anyone who used them. He knew there was something going on with Luke, he had known it from the first moment Bryn and Luke had become friends. He just couldnt understand why Luke wouldnt tell him, the only thing he could think of was that Luke was a werewolf and was trying to hide it. Except he was sure he never did a dissapearing act.

"Its just...?" Bryn prompted as Luke trailed off again after two words. He sat on the end of his bed and waited for Luke to speak. When he did, Bryn shook his head and stood up heading back towards the dormitory door. His eyes not resting on Luke. "Luke, I'm your friend. If you didnt want to tell me I would have been fine with that." His voice was low but he was sure Luke could hear him. "But you know how I hate being lied to, and you're not a very good liar." He nodded to the flask on the bed, if he wanted it, it was there.

[lukas]

Damn it. Why on earth did he have to become friends with the one person who despised being lied to? Even if it was for a damn good cause? He'd avoided this subject for years now, and some idiotic Gryffindor had to come along and fuck it all up for him. If he got his hands on the little twerp...well, he wouldn't be stealing anything else anytime soon. Allowing the murderous thoughts to rage through his system for a moment, Lukas looked at the flask. Could he trust Bryn?

He knew his friend, and he was fairly sure that, whatever happened, the boy wouldn't completely loathe him. But could he trust him not to say a word? To keep his mouth shut until they'd graduated? Lukas wanted to say yes to all those questions but he simply couldn't be sure. This was huge. It wasn't some girl or guy he'd made out with that had to be kept a secret. This was life altering stuff.

Urgh. "Fine. Okay. Fine. Come with me." Lukas' voice was filled with something bordering on fear and anticipation. He was scared as hell, he didn't want to think about the possible outcome of this situation, but he was also feeling strangely high. "Fuck." He whispered it, grabbing Bryns collar and dragging him off to a broom closet.

[Bryn Kennedy]

If Bryn knew Luke was questioning his loyalty in his mind, Bryn would have been really hurt. As far as he was aware he had never leaked anything Luke had told him, and he never ever would. It would have really wounded him if he knew Luke was asking himself if he could trust Bryn. Sure, Bryn could be an arse at times but he wasnt the kind of guy to start rumours, even if they were true. He didnt like gossipers much and he vowed he would never be one.

"Alright." Bryn answered, he would have followed anyway but something caught him and made him stand still, the fact he heard fear in Luke's voice. He hadnt meant to scare Luke into telling him, he felt awful now. Luke's hand reached out and grabbed Bryn's collar, Bryn made a stangled sound and undid the top button of his shirt so he wasnt being strangled and let Luke drag him off.

Broom. Closet.
Broom Closet + a Gay lad.
Broom Closet + A gay lad and another guy!
Gulp.

"If you've dragged me in here to try to make out with me!" Bryn started as Luke pushed him in. "Remember I'm straight! If you're trying to tell me you fancy me then you could have said that up in the dorm!" Bryn's eyes widened as he thought about him. Sure, Luke often told him that he liked him in a joking manner, Bryn just took it on the chin usually trying to forget about it, taking it for the joke it actually was. But, if Luke was dragging him here, would that mean he... actually did?

Bryn didnt know just how far off the mark he really was.

[lukas]

Oh if only. Lukas actually chuckled at that, though it was somewhat of a dark chuckle. He would love to be in here to make out with Bryn, even if his friend wasn't like that. He'd love for it to be as simple as that. Hell, he'd gladly take the rejection that came along with telling his friend he fancied him, if it meant he could avoid the actual topic they were about to discuss. "Shut up" It was whispered nervously, the blonde digging fingernails into his palms as he looked at his friend.

It would only be a few more minutes now, he could feel it. His skin was starting to prickle a little, as if tiny little needles were hitting him all over. He was shivering, feeling cold and miserable. It was usually something he avoided, by taking the next sip, and part of him desperately wanted to grab the bottle and end all this now. Even if it wasn't particularly awful, he still didn't want to stand here and become...that again.

It wasn't him. He wasn't like that. Like her. She was all wrong. She had the wrong parts and the wrong body and she just...he hated her. Truly hated her. And yet he was allowing himself to turn back because of Bryn. Because his best friend deserved the truth. Lukas bit down on his bottom lip, feeling it grow fuller and softer underneath his touch, as his body finally went back to the person he'd been born as. Lorelei Amelia Clarke.

[Bryn Kennedy]

He heard Luke's dark chuckle and for a moment Bryn thought his fears were coming true. Though when Luke told him to shut up, Bryn did. Despite the fact he thought in any moment he'd feel Luke kiss him and that thought scared the hell out of him. He braced himself, ready and wondered how Luke would feel once Bryn pushed him away, except it never came. He exhaled, thankful. Though, now that obviously wasnt the case, Bryn wondered why the hell Luke had dragged him in here.

"Luke...?" He asked, his voice a little nervous. He couldnt see Luke, the closet was too dark. "Where are you?" He reached out his hand to where Luke's shoulder should have been but what his hand found Bryn was not prepared for. His hand found hair... long hair... this was odd... far odder than Bryn could even let his brain comprehend. He reached for his wand and used the Lumos spell...

His eyes were not looking at Luke...

"What the fuck?" Bryn spoke, his voice shocked but his eyes were intruiged. He wasnt running anywhere so that was a good sign right? He reached out again, just to be sure his eyes werent playing tricks on him. His hand ran through his... her soft hair, his eyes widened. His fingers touched her cheeks, the skin was soft...

What the hell was going on here?

Bryn let out a soft chuckle and let his wand drop. Of all the things Luke was hiding from him, Bryn would never have thought of this in any world. His head cocked to the side as his eyes scanned the face. Shes kinda cute. He thought to himself before he could stop it. What the fuck Bryn? No! That's Luke! His brows furrowed, well technically she was a female right? But Luke was a male... Luke was one of his closest friends and Bryn knew Luke was a male... Okay this was confusing... His head hurt as he tried to make sense of this.

"I cant..." He answered himself aloud, "Wow... this is... confusing... and strange..." He looked at Luke again. "Luke? Uh... what?"

[lukas]

He hadn't expected Bryn to touch him. Actually, he hadn't expected much of anything. Maybe for Bryn to run away. Or for him to...vomit maybe. He wasn't sure. He just knew that he hadn't been expecting this, for the other to touch him, run soft fingers through his hair, down his cheek...it hurt, in a fascinatingly good kind of way. And it made him want to scream. Punch something. Do something utterly masculine just to prove to everyone that he wasn't like this.

"This...It's how I was born" He said it softly, looking down at the floor. Lukas tried to ignore the fact that he could see his own female body when he looked down and just focused on the gritty, dirt-filled pattern on the floor. "I've hated it for as long as I can remember, and when I got my acceptance letter to Hogwarts, my parents finally told me that there was a way for me to start over..to become who I really am."

Lukas shivered, taking the Potion flask from his left hand into his right, holding it up for his friend to see. "I have to drink from it every day, or else...this happens." He figured that he should let Bryn get in a comment or two, before he transformed back into who he was meant to be.

[Bryn Kennedy]

He hadnt known how to react, sure any normal person would have screamed and fled but Bryn was by no means normal. Besides, Luke was his friend, Luke had trusted Bryn with this and whether it scared Bryn or not, well, he couldnt run away. How long had Luke had to deal with this alone. Well, now Bryn knew Bryn wouldnt let him deal alone. He let his hand fall, still amazed by the fact it wasnt an illusion, Luke had transformed into a girl. A girl with girl parts... rather than just the face. This was part of Luke but it didnt change who Luke was. Much.

"How you were born?" He repeated. So did that make Luke technically female or what? He couldnt keep his eyes off her, she was attractive and that scared the life out of Bryn. Bryn knew he wasnt gay or even that way inclined but he found the female version of Luke very attractive. This frightened him. He would of course never let Luke know that. Trying to look somewhere else he found his eyes on her chest, quickly he averted his eyes feeling his face flush slightly. This was a lot to handle, he was confused by the situation, scared by the fact he found the girl attractive, amazed by it all but at the same time weirded out by it. "To... be a guy you mean?" He kept trying to simplify it so Bryn could understand.

Bryn looked at the flask Luke was holding. He couldnt get over how different Luke's voice was either. "Could be worse." Bryn stated without thinking about it, "What I meant was she could be dog ugly. But from where I'm stood, doesnt look too bad." Trying to make Luke feel better by telling him what Bryn actually thought, just without saying he was attracted to the female. What he would never understand was how Luke didnt want to be her, if she liked guys she'd just be straight right? It didnt matter, Bryn already knew he would never understand this.

[lukas]

Could be worse? Lukas was surprised by his statement, brown eyes coming up to look at him questioningly. When he was male, they were blue, which was one of the small differences between the two. Really, he did look a little like his male form, just different. Softer. "Worse? Worse than being trapped like this? This...body, it's hideous" It didn't matter if people found him attractive like this, because it didn't fit. He didn't belong in this soft skin, this curvy body. He liked himself tall and muscled and strong.

He shook his head, long bangs falling in front of his eyes which made him huff in frustration. Why did Bryn have to be attracted to this? Why couldn't he just be attracted to his male form? It wasn't as if he was much different! He just had another body. Why did that have to be a problem? Yes, he was being a hypocrite, because having the wrong body was a HUGE problem, but Bryn liked him as a friend, and found him attractive as a girl. It wasn't fair!

"I can't be happy in this body. I'm not a girl, you know me Bryn...you know I'm not like that" His voice was barely more as a whisper, the blonde bringing his bottle back to his lips to take a few sips. The transformation would take a minute or five to kick in and it was incredibly painful, much more so than being forced back into his female body, though he never minded the physical pain as much when he was going back to his male form.

[Bryn Kennedy]

Bryn winced slightly as Luke reprimanded him. It was in this moment that Bryn realised something that he wished he hadnt realised. He shook those thoughts away as quickly as he came and grabbed hold of Luke's shoulders, pushing him further into the closet and shutting off the light of his wand, placed his hand over Luke's mouth to stiffle the yells and told him to be quiet as the door opened and someone looked around. Both stood quite close to eachother, Bryn was listening for sounds as he heard the door close again. Bryn looked down at Luke, well the female, and backed off, lighting the tip again. Really, yelling when he didnt want people to know his secret, it was like an open invitation. "To you maybe, but I'll guarentee any guy who looks at that body will say it's anything but hideous."

He couldnt see the face of the girl anymore as her hair dropped over her face. He didnt get it, Luke should realise Bryn wouldnt care if he was a guy or a girl, Bryn would be his friend either way. Of course he didnt understand Luke hated the fact Bryn was attracted to the girl and not Luke himself. If he'd have known that he may have refrained from saying half the stuff he was saying. Pushing the hair away from her eyes, Bryn tilted her head to make her look at him. "I dont care that you're a male sometimes trapped in a girl's body Luke, you're still my friend and I actually cant believe you honestly thought I would care about this."

"If you're happier being a guy then be a guy." Bryn shrugged, "Be whoever makes you happy. That's all you should worry about you know." Weird, Bryn would never have such a heart to heart with a guy... maybe it was because who was standing in front of him was actually a girl. Though saying that, maybe it would be different now Bryn knew his secret. He watched as Luke drank some of the potion, Bryn knew he'd be Luke again soon. He leant back on the wall and waited for Luke to either say something or transform back.

[lukas]

Luke listened to him, shivering as he felt the transformation coming on. He bit down on his bottom lip, wanting to say so much and not knowing the right words to answer anything right now. Instead, he wrapped an arm around his waist, curling in on himself a little as his breathing began to speed up. Fuck. It was worth it, but barely. The pain was horrible, and he sank down to his knees, looking up at the brunette as his hair began to shorten again.

"Just...give me a moment" He'd be able to respond to his friend in a few moments, when he felt that he could breathe again. Right now he just needed to focus on himself, on making this as easy and effortless as it could possibly be. It was a sensation that couldn't be explained to someone that had never taken the Potion. He felt himself growing, but it was almost as if someone took his head and literally pulled him apart until he was taller. It was as if his female body was protesting the change, protesting the muscles that appeared under skin that was stretched too thin.

When the change was over, he got back to his feet, still shaking a little. He was unsure of what to say, because things were different now. Men didn't have these little heart to hearts that women did. Still. He was very glad that Bryn took things the way he did. "Thanks. I should have known you wouldn't care...I just never told anyone. You saw what nearly happened there...people would freak out over it if I just told them."

[Bryn Kennedy]

Bryn nodded when he was told to give him a minute. Honestly, he could think of worse things than this. He wouldnt keep telling Luke that when it was obvious Luke didnt want to hear it. Bryn looked away for a moment, feeling like this moment for Luke, transforming back, was kind of private and he didnt want to intrude. Bryn didnt watch and so he didnt see that this was giving Luke pain, it would only make him feel worse for making Luke show him what was going on and what he was hiding from Bryn. Bryn didnt know what it was like to have secrets as he didnt have any, nothing anybody could use against him. He was pretty open and everyone knew everything about him, he wasnt overly secretive.

When Luke spoke again Bryn turned, his voice was male and standing in front of him this time was the face of his closest friend. Bryn gave a warm smile and placed a hand on the boy's shoulder. "Well you've heard the saying right?" He tilted his head and quoted, "Those who matter dont care and those who care dont matter." He removed his hand and slumped back against the wall of the closet, locking the door this time. He didnt think Luke was ready to leave just yet and he would know Bryn wouldnt want anybody getting the wrong idea about why he was in the closet with another guy... no pun intended.

"If anyone finds out it wont be from me, Luke." He promised, the only way people would find out would be if Luke told them himself, standing back up he took Luke in a headlock and rubbed his hair with his fist, something he always did with Luke in an attempt to show him he really didnt care. He let him go and laughed, "See, nothing's going to change. Unless you grow boobs again." He laughed lightly, trying to ease the tension and shrugged. He would see its not a big deal, but he knew Luke would bitch-slap him for that... something Luke did whether Bryn said something wrong or not but Bryn wasnt known for guarding his tongue, he usually spoke what he thought.

[lukas]

Unless he got boobs again. Lukas rolled his eyes, whacking Bryn over the head before chuckling. "What then? You'll hit on me? I swear to God, Kennedy, if you so much as try to hit on my female form, I'll embarrass you in front of the entire school" He had no idea what he would do, and it was damn bloody likely that he wouldn't end up doing anything, but the idea of his closest friend hitting on him when he hadn't taken the potion...

Well. It was difficult, because he crushed on him. Not that Bryn knew. Not that he could know. If anything, Lukas would rather be tortured than admit this to anyone. And besides, it'd all end someday. He'd find someone to fall in love with, someone who would love him despite everything that was messed up, and that'd be that. Sure, it was great that his friend loved him, now that he knew, but he didn't see him like that and so there would never be anything else.

And Luke was fine with that. He honestly was. As much as they joked around about Bryn turning gay for him, he knew there wasn't a chance in hell of that actually happening. And the blonde would never seriously hit on him or try to seduce him. He cared enough to want to see Bryn happy, all the time.