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Post by Ashton Laurent on Dec 9, 2009 20:41:59 GMT 1
Ash was shocked into silence once more. Markus had a life similar to his. It seemed like that anyway. Then, came the question he'd been dreading.
"Don't tell me you've had the same privileged pureblood upbringing that I did."
Ash wanted to avert his eyes away from Markus, but knew that if he did not keep eye contact, Markus would surely know that he was lying. Instead, he forced his voice to remain steady and calm. "No." he answered softly. "My dad and I don't really get along, but we mostly ignore eachother." There was no way he was going to tell Markus that his dad's version of ignoring him was beating and... raping him. No way at all.
Ash sighed and leaned against Markus' chest. He hated lying. Hated it! But what choice did he have? Tell him the truth? his conciense suggested. But I'm not ready yet! I probably never will be. You will be ready. Someday. And when that day comes you're going to look him in the eyes and tell him the truth. The whole truth came the gentle assurance. Ash wasn't so sure himself though. Would he ever be ready?
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Post by Markus O'Keefe on Dec 9, 2009 20:52:03 GMT 1
Of course he wouldn't have the same things happening. It only happened in those Pureblood families that had been on the wrong side of the war, ones who loved to perform Crucio even on their own sons and daughters. Claimed it made them stronger, better than those who'd never been able to withstand such a torture. Markus had learned to take it without making a sound, but it was something that still made him shiver as he thought about it, proven by the gentle shiver that ran down his spine now.
"No torture from your family, got it. I'm glad" He genuinely was. No one should go through things like this. "I'm sure there's an interesting story behind that scar though. Vengeful ex boyfriend? Childhood pet?" Either of those would be infinitely less scarring and more funny than the tale he'd just told, but what could he do? It was the truth and something in the smaller boy inspired the truth from him. Probably his stupid feelings, but he'd care more about that tomorrow morning, when the alcohol had worn off and he was back to hiding most of his life. |
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Post by Ashton Laurent on Dec 9, 2009 21:05:28 GMT 1
Ash smiled. Glad that apparently Markus had not seen through his blatant lie. He knew that when he eventually did tell the truth, the older boy would likely be angry with him for lying in the first place. But Ash would deal with that when the time came.
He laughed at Markus next question. "Yeah, my step-mom's cat." was his answer. He shrugged slightly. "Damn thing hates me. I swear that cat is the spawn of Satan."
Ash sighed and leaned against Markus, his head was resting on the brunette's chest, just under his chin. He didn't know why he couldn't tell Markus the truth. The older boy had obviously been comfortable enough to tell the truth about his dad. So why couldn't Ash? The young Ravenclaw figured it was the fear and shame his dad instilled in him all those years ago.
Fear that his dad would find out, and shame at what Ash allowed him to do to him. No! He could not think like that. It was not his fault that his dad beat him and raped him. That he had taken his son's innocence for his own twisted pleasure. But... if it wasn't his fault, then why did Ash feel so ashamed about it?
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Post by Markus O'Keefe on Dec 9, 2009 21:23:21 GMT 1
Markus mmed as Ashton told him the truth, smiling a little with his eyes closed. He liked hearing silly things like this, things that made him feel closer to the boy in his arms. It was odd how he could feel so comfortable, how he could stop worrying about what he'd do to him. It wouldn't matter if Ash fell in love with him, because maybe at some point in time he'd actually return some of those feelings.
Part of him actually wanted to hold onto this, wanted to remember this in the morning, this soft and intimate scene they'd set here. And yet he knew he couldn't, knew that his pride would get into the way. He couldn't be seen dating him. He couldn't be seen dating anyone that wasn't a perfect Pureblood, someone more like him, someone people would understand.
"We should go to sleep...or you'll have me dozing off during class. Makes for more tutoring sessions but I doubt I'll like you very much if you make me do more homework." He'd endure it, but that'd be it. There was no way in hell Markus O'Keefe would actually start to enjoy his homework. |
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Post by Ashton Laurent on Dec 11, 2009 18:10:04 GMT 1
Ash had to hold back a sigh of relief. Obviously he was a much better liar than he thought. Not that that was a good thing. Or, maybe in this case it was. Eitherway, Markus obviously believed him and he could rest easy tonight.
A part of Ash, well okay, almost all of him wanted to hold on to this moment forever. He had a feeling that this was going to be one of the few tender moments he would have with Markus. Come morning when both of them were sober, Markus would no doubt turn back into his usual arrogant self. And part of Ash was okay with that. The part that was attracted to Markus' arrogance. But another part didn't. The sensitive part. That was the side Ash would have to control tomorrow.
Ash laughed. "Yeah, we probably should go to sleep. Although I was wondering about something.... How do you know whether I'll make you do homework or not? What, are you a mind reader?" he teased the older boy. Of course he probably would make Markus do a little bit of homework. But, if Markus didn't complain about it, well then maybe Ash could be persuaded to cut their study hour short again. Maybe.
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Post by Markus O'Keefe on Dec 11, 2009 20:04:28 GMT 1
He snorted into the boys neck, happy to lay here nuzzling the boy with his eyes closed. He smelled like cinnamon and chocolate, an odd combination but it worked well with the brunette in his arms. "Mmm, I just doubt you'll let me seduce you every time I want to ditch homework" It was a fun idea, to hit on him whenever work was to be done, but he knew that he'd only manage to get himself in more trouble that way. "Not when you're so strict about me passing my NEWT exams" He let his hand slide down the boys stomach, pulling him a little closer.
The situation was intimate, but not erotic. Yes, they were both nude, but there wasn't even a single part of the Gryffindor that was currently aroused. He was just..comfy. Happy and lazy and comfortable, and wishing that this would last.
The brunette yawned again, stretching his toes and curling them happily. He snuggled a bit closer, feeling that familiar drowsiness beginning to settle. He was sure to fall asleep soon, maybe even in the middle of their conversation if Ashton was adamant about talking some more. |
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Post by Ashton Laurent on Dec 11, 2009 20:58:39 GMT 1
Ash laughed. "Well, I may let you seduce me once in a while. But only if you get some work done." He turned towards Markus again and gave the older boy a soft kiss. "Besides, look at it as a reward. You get your work done, there's more time for fun." he pulled back and smiled.
Ash lay back down, settling into Markus' arms once more. They weren't lovers yet, but Ash had a feeling that that would change soon. How soon? Ash didn't know.
Ash laughed when Markus' hand slid across his stomach. "Stop. That tickles." he said. Oh great. Now Markus would probably use that little tidbit of information to his advantage.
The Ravenclaw yawned, snuggling back down into Markus's arms. It must've been close to two am by now. If he didn't get to sleep soon, Ash would end up falling asleep in class! And that was something he couldn't do. Especially seeing as he was Head Boy. Sometimes though, Ash hated being Head Boy. He didn't like dealing with the stress and pressure. What did he care if a couple first years wanted to sneak around after curfew? Hell, he had done that when he was younger.
Ash could feel his eyes becoming heavier, as his thoughts became less coherent. Finally, he allowed sleep to overcome him.
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Post by Markus O'Keefe on Dec 12, 2009 16:00:17 GMT 1
When Markus woke up the next morning, it was to find a boy snuggled up against him, and for a moment he just blinked, wondering how on earth someone had thought he was snuggle-worthy. Most people were too afraid to cuddle close to him, and he mostly threw them out before he went to sleep anyway. So to have this happening was rather unusual to say the least. He gently untangled himself from the brunette, hoping to leave him when the boy was still asleep.
Setting his feet upon the cold floor he shivered, searching for his clothes as to get away as quickly as possible. The last thing he wanted was for Ashton to wake up and ask for more cuddling, as he really wasn't much of a cuddler when he was awake.
Yeah, okay, the Ravenclaw was still gorgeous, and their night together hadn't been unpleasant in the least, but when Markus was sober, cuddling was just out of the question. It was reserved for people that he honestly cared about, and he just didn't care that way about the Head Boy. It was impossible. It simply wasn't going to happen. His father would murder him. OoC: Read the PM I sent? <3 Do you want to continue this thread or just have Markus leave before Ash wakes up? That could be cruel xD I like it better this way >> |
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